Do not fear, for I am with you; do not look anxiously about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you. Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41: 10 NASB
This was a verse that meant a lot to me as a young mom. Looking back now, I suspect that I may have suffered from postpartum depression after my first two daughters were born. What I remember most was the incredible anxiety I experienced then. I was sure something dreadful was going to happen to my kids or husband. If I could worry about something, I did. So, knowing that God was there for me meant a lot. Just like I could grab one of my kids and yank them out of danger, God promised me that He could do the same for me with that strong right hand of His – and He could do it perfectly whereas I couldn’t.
At the time, our family doctor was a Christian and a friend who we had met while he was in medical school, and we all attended the Inter-Varsity group at Western University. One day while I was unloading all my anxiety on him, he said to me, “Audrey, I know you are going to get through all this, and I think God has a plan for all this stress to strengthen you for something ahead.” I remember at the time thinking – “Oh great! That’s not very comforting.”
But during that time period of three or four years, I learned to depend on God in ways I never would have if things had been going along smoothly. I went for counselling with a Christian counsellor who gave me some great ways of dealing with stress. I’m so thankful now for all that training because when Wayne’s health’s issues became really serious years later, I had a foundation to rely on that I never would have without all that craziness earlier.
So, God does help us and strengthen us in whatever ways we need. He has plans for our present and our future. He can use this pandemic and all its frustrations and worries for our good. He is with us.
Our song for today is Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) by Hillsong United